by Matilda Carter

The buzzword in politics at the moment, or at least one of them, seems to be mental health. Mental health must be treated as just as important as physical health, say the Lib Dems, we are all victims of mental health problems say Labour and the stigma of mental health must be removed say the Conservatives. It is welcome that, this week, the Conservative government have pledged to increase funding for mental health services, even though the combined effect of government measures over the last six years on people with mental health issues is somewhat less than perfect. Terrible even.

Still, this is a good time if you, like me, suffer from mental health conditions which you previously felt were bars to a social and professional life. Unfortunately, the huge expansion in understanding of mental health issues has led to the emergence of a counterproductive and deeply problematic movement against the use of medication. These are people who see mental health issues as natural and see medicating as an attempt to destroy the uniqueness of people suffering from mental health conditions. Presumably this is because all of their information on mental health conditions comes from watching House and Rain Man.

It’s all very well to complain of people being drugged up by big pharma to undermine their unique and brilliant minds

Let me be frank. I suffer from bipolar depression (type 2), borderline personality disorder, bulimia and a form of body dysmorphia which is somewhat separate from the gender dysphoria I experience. It’s all very well to complain of people being drugged up by big pharma to undermine their unique and brilliant minds, but if I didn’t take my medication I would experience life like a cocaine addiction: manic, over-productive, unstable highs followed by crushing life-inhibiting lows. I know this, because I recently bought into the anti-meds rhetoric and came off of my meds. The place I went to is somewhere I never wish to return to.

You may as well tell me that I can overcome a broken bone through colouring books.

We must not make social policy without really understanding what we are talking about and we certainly should not undermine mental illness by speaking about it so flippantly. Being fussy is not the same as OCD, I don’t want society to medicate fussiness away but, as someone with an OCD-sufferer in my life, I do want to medicate the effects of OCD. I often think if people in the anti-meds movement could see someone they loved exhaustedly walking in and out of their room because they could not go to sleep without walking through their door frame the correct number of times. Then they might understand that mental illness are not unique quirks or personality types incompatible with neoliberal capitalism, but life-inhibiting afflictions that must be taken as such.

Don’t tell me to get off of my meds and learn to deal with my mental health issues through self-belief and hope. You may as well tell me that I can overcome a broken bone through colouring books. Let’s not buy into our own egos and let’s understand that the brain is an organ that can be damaged. That way we can fight the stigma of mental health by pointing to someone with a broken leg and asking if they should be considered unreliable or trouble-making, rather than fighting it by essentialising our illnesses and their effects.


  1. Actually, there are people who will tell you that colouring books can cure your mental health issues (if not a shattered femur), haven’t you seen all those Colouing Books for Adults.

    The most ridiculous reaction I’ve had to my needing medication to cope with life is when my ex called me a drug addict for it. This ex also told me my drugs were “closing my mind to new experiences” and that I should try LSD instead. I replied that if I had to choose between not-committing-suicide and new-experiences, I’d most definitely try and keep myself alive above all else.

    I was fairly lucky when it came to mental health issues, considering I don’t think there’s anyone in my family who actually doesn’t have issues in some way, so at least they’re understanding. It also lends credence to the idea that mental health is, in part, genetic.

    I’m seriously fed up with people asking me “oh, but WHY do you feel depressed/anxious/etc., what caused it” when the answer can simply be “my brain squirts chemicals at the wrong time”. Obviously, outside issues can exacerbate these things, but come on, no one asks what caused the hypertriglyceridaemia, I just have it because my dad did.

    Searching for answers isn’t always helpful, especially if there genuinely isn’t one. Unfortunately, the fact that there is no meaning behind that particular depressive episode can actually make it worse, which is why I hate it when people are like “well there are people all over the world who have a worse life than you!!”


    • It’s such a relief to find that people are speaking up and saying “Yes, I take meds, and I won’t back down.” I have been on meds for mental health issues for a long time. Like you, I have “bought in to the anti-meds rhetoric” and went off of meds for a while, and, like you, went somewhere I would never wish on anyone. The process of healing is not ALL meds, by any means, but here’s the thing–if I am not in a mental position to receive positive influences like cognitive therapy, etc, then how am I supposed to put some of these things into practice? If I am in a state in which I can’t cook for myself because of my mental health, how can I fix my diet? The list goes on and on. And yes, there are WHYs and HOWs and lots of questions to answer, but here’s the bottom line: don’t judge unless you’ve been there.


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